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haven't updated in a while, so...

I'm afraid of:

[x] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[x] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[x] talking on the phone
Total so far: 5

[x] being touched (more like it makes me anxious and frustrated as all fuck)
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[x] success (maybe if i just remain stationary...)
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[x] mirrors
Total so far: 9

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges (er, i would have to have done this to know...)
[x] death
[x] heaven (eternal bliss? my mind can't even comprehend this...)
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[x] dolls (Those porcelain motherfuckers)
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists (mostly dentists, i just don't trust doctors)
[x] tornadoes
[x] bugs (specifically cockroaches or silverfish)
Total so far: 17

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[x] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[x] even numbers (stop eating my brain)
[x] being alone (only during panic attacks and such)
[ ] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf (I have tinnitus. what if i had that sound stuck in my head FOREVER?)
[ ] growing up (too late there...)
[ ] speaking in front of a crowd (I'm actually much better with this than one on one)
Total so far: 22

[x] creepy noises in the night (who isn't?)
[x] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals (i'd rather die)
[ ] needles
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[x] high speed (I close my eyes when my sister goes too fast on the highway brrrrr)
[ ] throwing up (I actually wish I could projectile vomit on assholes on command)
[ ] falling in love (too late. fuck you, brain.)
[ ] super secrets
[x] losing someone I care about (worse than my fear of my own death)
Total so far: 27

Total : 27 out of 78

I dunno if I was supposed to add a fear or not, so i did anyway. Tried to make them actual fears and not anxiety-based. Not too bad for someone that froze at the top of an escalator for the first time in her life recently. I can't stop writing this stupid story...