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Am I just getting worse? Why am I struggling on skills that I've worked years to achieve in the first place? What a big, fucking joke. And I know I'm not the only one struggling. It's an epidemic. How do you turn off your own brain? At this rate, I'll be a quivering mass of idiot by age thirty.

I miss the overwhelming confidence and creativity I used to feel, even if it wasn't warranted. At least I still had creativity then. Maybe I'm just screwing myself over the more I learn and experience.

And I miss my dog. He would know how to make it all better.

And I know my bird means well and just wants to share the love, but there's a bit of a difference between high, piercing shouts and a warm head on your lap.



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May. 29th, 2010 12:40 am (UTC)
Sorry if our conversation earlier got you all down. For what it's worth, I think your writing is definitely something that you can be proud of and have confidence in. We've only messed around here and there, but I've really enjoyed rping with you.

Also "a warm head on your lap" is totally reminding me of that one scene we did. :3
May. 29th, 2010 12:45 am (UTC)
Also, oh god, it just occurred to me that maybe you thought I was complaining that our rp wasn't cutting it in terms of post quality, but that totally wasn't what I met. Community rp and AIM rp are totally different worlds for me, so anything I complain about community-wise as noooo basis in how I feel about my AIM rp.

So yeah, don't think that, just in case that's what you were thinking. I need more tl;dr in my group rps, not my one-on-one AIM stuff. <3
May. 29th, 2010 01:13 am (UTC)
I didn't think you were talking about our rp, so don't worry.
May. 29th, 2010 01:12 am (UTC)
You didn't get me down. I was already feeling kind of bleh and our convo made me realize what's bothering me. Thank you for the compliment; I've enjoyed writing with you very much as well. My anxiety has just been eating at me and it sucks because it makes me think all these negative things. I'm tired of whining, so I'll stop it.

That scene was so sweet~ I bet they're just getting accustomed to being comfortable with each other there.
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